Random Witterings!

It’s not often I feel moved to post about something, I find it hard to write about my thoughts on a subject having kept everything to myself for so many years.

So much positive stuff has happened the last year tho I have to start letting it out

My weight loss to date is 5 stone. I achieved this using the Weightwatchers point diet which is about the only thing that had any effect in the past, albeit in a small way.

My main incentive was to be able to walk properly, unaided and for more than just a few steps before it caused my back more pain than I could handle and the very real risk of becoming wheelchair bound.

I decided that under no circumstances would I be able to live like that so the only real choice was to lose weight. My lower back was already weak and the weight was just compressing the base of my spine and pressing on the nerves there so it was always inflamed and sore and when I tried to walk it would go rigid and I wouldn’t be able to flex or bend and the pain was just stupid. The only way to relieve it would be to sit down for a few minutes.

I used to dread going anywhere because I didn’t know if they had seating. Something as simple as going into the city centre shopping was a mammoth task and the route had to be planned around the public seating dotted here and there.

It was just no way to live.

I’ve had a nice break now from the diet and maintained my current weight and hugely (no pun intended!) enjoyed being able to move around so well. It’s like a new lease of life.

Now to get back on it!!

The reasons I got to the weight I was are many and I will post about them eventually… just not right now

*hugs*

Well, I finally got around to doing a blog… what on earth have I got to say? Hmmmmmm.

Am at a bit of a turning point in my life having let too many years go by and nothing to show for them. Not all laziness or being boring but I have long term depression and Anxiety issues. Social phobia/Agoraphobia thrown in and it makes me a very dull person Ok not that dull but I don’t go out much!

Soooo this year I decided to take myself in hand and DO something.

My aims for this year were :

1. To lose weight (Start of the year I was 23 stone *ouch*)
2. To learn to play the guitar (I played violin for several years as a young’un and didn’t want to go back to that)
3. To take up singing again (always enjoyed it but lack of any confidence put a stop to it).

I started weightwatchers Diet in January and to date have lost 3 and a half stone (48 pounds). Having a little break at the moment but maintaining my current weight of 19 and a half stone. Felt SO good for the first time in years being under 20 stone and that I have some control back over my weight. My mum took me clothes shopping as a treat and I ended up sobbing in the changing rooms when I tried something on and it was too big for me. I had outgrown the largest sizes of this particular shop so it was quite momentous for me.

This tuesday I started Guitar class at a local college and had SO much fun. I have a good friend called Jaye and she is very shy like me so we decided to do it and singing class together. Singing class started the following night on the wednesday and that was really good too. I love singing but for years have been too nervous or shy to sing with any volume in front of other people, even people I know. So that too was a very liberating experience. My finger tips of my left hand are raw from playing and practicing so I HOPE the callouses form quickly

That’s about it for now – more soon